well...heard about the news today.
i had no idea.
and i dont have much info about what happened cause THERES NO CABLE if it was featured on the news or whatever.
is it in the papers?
well yeah.
tragic news.
to have one tkg girl's life to be lost, just like that.
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-sigh

okay.
training today was like CRAP.
for once, training was the opposite.
instead of being more encouraged by coach and then discouraged by coach zhang, it was, yeah.
the other way round.
ball drills with coach zhang.
was okay actually, except for the bases one.
before training even started, i was tired + sleepy.
so everything i did today was real slack.
even fielding, before i even ran for the ball i gave up.
which had never happened before.
so ya.
i only caught like two of coach z's batted balls.
so she chased me aside .
she told me she didnt like my attitude.
well neither did i.
but yeah, i tried harder.
improved a little.
and she told me that i could make it but i had to work alotalot more harder, cause im ardy lagging behind.
many times, i cried.
for not doing homework the past year and the past two days.
and i was so mad at myself.
but i shant elaborate on that, since the softballers would know what i mean.

ya then batting with coach, just when i thought training couldnt get any worser
she was in a freaking bad mood when we were batting la
like she was picking on every single thing you did.
lets see.
first, she said we pick balls too slow.
so she made us sprint.
then, she said that OUR batch couldnt bat
like whats her ****ing problem la.
then she tell us dont bat anymore.
PFFT.
so she demonstrate.
then she ask us continue batting.
then when i was batting i ardy had a huge blister on my right index finger which became bigger and bigger the past three trainings.
so i couldnt grip bat.
which was why i drop bat.
so zzzzzzzzzzz she yelled again.
then when fielding,
once i didnt catch grounder properly.
i think i didnt go down low enough/ feet open either too big or too small.
then 2 minutes later she punished me.
to duck walk.
like what crap is that.
she could tell me my mistake before punishing me, like she always does right.
then she suddenly yelled at the vj pitchers, threatening to punish them, which was something i'd never seen before.
she has mood swings la
-.-"
and wait im not done yet .
then suddenly after scolding the seniors, she LAUGHED.
wowwwwwww =="
weird man.
then when preya was batting and i was tossing for her, just ONCE i tossed when preya wasnt ready by mistake.
then she shouted at me: what's your problem?
i wanted to ask her what her problem was.
like what shit.
we all make mistakes okayy.
then she asked us cool down.
then stretch.
then after piggyback, we talked for awhile
like 5 seconds.
all of a sudden coach shouted at us for talking.
and all her attention was on me when she was scolding us.
like wth is that man.
everyone was talking okay.
even the seniors la
like wa lao.
then she thought i was the only one talking, until preya told her we were all talking .
-thanks preya [: -
ya then she asked us to sprint again.
then had to stretch again.
THEN, she had the team talk.
and she asked me to follow ms tay to get the key.
so i went with ms tay.
but i lost track of where she went.
so after looking for her outside general office and staff room, i went back.
i saw the pitchers changing, so i thought the rest were changing too.
so ya.
i changed boots and stuff.
then lydia and the rest came back from no idea where.
like uh-oh.
went to get my glove and tumbler from the pavement, where coach was talking to the vj girls.
and she scolded me.
coach: where were you just now?
me: huh?
coach: when i was giving the team a talk. why you take so long to change some more?
me: -.-" you asked me to follow ms tay to get the key, but i couldnt find her so i came back to change.
DIAO MAN.
she didnt even know that she asked me to follow ms tay to get the key.
whats her problem?
then instead she scolded me.
and its not like i was the last to change and everything.
in fact i didnt take my time.
i just didnt hurry like mad.
and i only started changing when the pitchers were already done.
gee.
she was really weird today.
and yes, now i do know why many prefer coach zhang.
even though she can be a bit racist and look down on singaporeans.
i think now i prefer her.
well.
coach thinks i talk too much, which is why im not improving.
but no.
i dont talk alot during trainings
and the reason why im not improving last time was cause i didnt do enough homework.
and i think im improving slightly nowadays, so SHEESH.
nevermind.
hope she'll be in a better mood tomorrow.
or i'll come home all sulky like today.
D: