hello .
lessons today were okay .
math was really confusing .
took me a long long long time to understand one question, and the reason i understood wasnt cause the teacher taught me, but jing yi (:
i still love history .
i decided to take up history + literature in sec three .
but im not sure which for core and which for elective yet .
then training .
i dont know how to describe it. really.
it was tiring/bad/the worst training ever/freaky/good/never ending/quick
yeah .
coach zhang has been very nice to me these days, and giving me lots and lots of chances
for example, we were doing grounders+throwing in the void deck cause it was raining .
then she said for every time you stand up, you run stairs once .
then once i stood up.
but she gave me chance.
she said, i give u warning ah [in mandarin of course]
then when other people stood up, they had to go and run stairs o.o
and then when i made so many other mistakes, she said one warning for you .
but no warning for other people
:p
but i had to run stairs twice in the end lah.
and nway, before it started raining we did very basic throws .
and you know what!
im so grateful towards coach zhang.
cause i felt this rightness when she corrected me.
and the ball went straight to my target when i didnt even put that much strength + effort.
i think its just amazing .
but after 5 throws, when coach zhang went to see other people's throwing, i went back to my old habits.
i really hate my mentality.
its like, when coach is around, or watching me, i put in effort and i use my brain
but when they go, i slack .
just like if there arent exams, i dont study much
when exams are round the corner, i study. and even cram.
so ya .
need to change my mind set D:
and when we were doing batting, i didnt use my brain again .
and my swings were still sucky.
and i realise im very fragile inside.
i can just cry anytime, when im frustrated, annoyed, sad, whatever .
so yaa.
i was surprised coach zhang gave me a chance to bat wafer balls.
cause honestly my batting was the worst among cdiv.
which is really sad .
i used to be better .
and when batting wafer balls, i was okay for the first few, then somewhere in the middle i missed about 5 balls in a row.
cause i dropped bat .
and coach zhang said, she was giving me chances ardy. the next ball i dont fully extend, i have to run stairs.
so what happen?
i extend fully and my balls went straight.
i amazed myself .
cause i thought all my past months efforts went down the drain.
but it was still there.
all i needed was some encouragement, threat, use of my brain and determination [:
do i sound cheesy?
okay whatever :D
hurhur .
then after batting coach zhang asked me how come i couldnt manage the balls until the last, 10?
and i said cause im very lazy?
and she said, no .
and i went, er.
then she went, its cause im overconfident,dont use brain and only do something correctly when there is punishment if i do it wrongly .
and i realise she's so true .
its weird that she knows me better than i know myself (=
uh-huh .
then physical.
*horror*
jump over your patner's butt x5 sets
without stopping .
then benches .
100x three sets
super mad right
and i had a stitch halfway during 2nd set of benches .
and cool down 2 rounds.
started off in the second row.
ended up in the last row.
lols.
coach zhang seemed amused .
then while stretching, coach zhang was kinda cracking us up.
LOL
she was talking about how eating mutton, beef, chicken and all that will make you stronger.
and all that stuff.
and blahblahblah
then she asked preya whether she ate alot of chicken
and i told coach zhang that she was a vegetarian
then coach zhang was like, OH, eat trees one?
HAHAHAHA
she was speaking everything in mandarin of couse
so i had to translate for preya.
and other stuff were even funnier la.
and you know what?
coach was clearing and cleaning stuff practically the whole of training
:D
so i wasnt so tensed.
except for the last part of training, but yeah .
hahaha
and then coach had three posters of world-famous softball players (:
like those huge posters
with very encouraging mottos on them .
then coach zhang was like to me, (in chinese) shermin ah, never use brain one. go and take one.
and i was like -.-
but that was cool la(:
cos i got the one with the whole team :DDD
and the motto on it was "when you have a true desire to compete, excelling is no longer work"
whenever i look at it, it inspires me somehow :D
heh
okay
i have to go.
so many exams round the corner
and theres finally pe tomorrow! (: